Happy Fifth Anniversary SHINee!!!

Five years ago my favorite band in the entire world debuted.

They will likely never see this, but I still have to do it.

One year ago I was going through a rough patch. I felt like I was in a hole and I felt alone and it was scary. That year ago, I randomly found Ring Ding Dong. After that it went to Lucifer. Then Sherlock. And then it got to the point where I bought as many albums as possible, and it was the only thing I listened too. I became determined to learn the dances, the lyrics, and I became a fan of SHINee.

While I probably will never be the biggest fan I still love every guy in that group. Onew, Jonghyun, Key, Minho, and Taemin. They've each given me something different.

Onew inspired me to be a caring person, someone people could look up to, but he made me feel like my shyness wasn't a bad thing. He reminds me how to be grounded, he reminds me that trying hard always brings results.

Jonghyun inspired me to embrace the funkiness inside of me, to make me want to go to Japan even more, and to really appreciate those who love you and those places where some of the greatest memories are made.

Key inspired me to embrace my uniqueness in every way possible. While I'm still shy about how I dress and how I look, he also said, "My dream isn't to become the best, it's to become someone I'm not ashamed of."
Key, I'm trying to live by that quote and be someone I'm not ashamed of. :) Honestly, you've taught me a lot about myself. Thank you.

Taemin inspired me to go skydiving even more. He's the baby of the band as I am the baby of my own family. His big jump to independence (or jumping out of the helicopter) inspires me to take risks in life, and he's the proof that those risks can be worth it-you are worth being able to grow.

Minho...inspired me to embrace the tomboy within. He inspired my artistic side even more.  He made me like rap. XD Minho's competitive side is a lot like mine, and knowing that there are others like me out there really helps me not feel so outcasted when I get competitive. Because I'm embracing that competitiveness, I'm going for varsity on my tennis team this year-I'm giving everything I've got. I'm now more determined than ever to start making videos and embracing photography and developing my own style and showing it to the world. And I'm certainly trying to learn to rap Korean and I don't even know the language...but it's a fun challenge.

I'm sure there are other things they've inspired me to do (like write songs...) and the such that isn't coming to me right now, but I've had other bands I've loved too, but this particular band has something about them that is just peculiar. I think it's because their personalities are so diverse, they have concepts like honor and respect, and the way they incorporate multiple cultures into their videos really inspires me like no other band before.

So overall, this is really just me praising a band who helped me embrace things I was to scared or to shy to embrace before, all while keeping me a modest person. For that I'm eternally grateful.

SHINee FIGHTING!!!!
<3

WHAP IS OVER!!!!

I took the exam yesterday and it is now over with! I think I did pretty good on the multiple choice, no idea on the essays (the topics sucked-they weren't fun at all, like the others).

And it's the day after and I've lost my voice over the course of one night. All because of a stupid sore throat that appeared out of no where. It's probably just allergies from having to much wheat and dairy at the same time. *cough cough* Our school's disgusting mac and cheese.
See, I'm bound to forget something important on a day like a big exam/test, and yesterday it was this AMAZING lunch I had prepared, and I forgot it so I had to buy crappy school lunch. I barely ate anything because I can't seem to stomach certain foods ever since we found worms in the school's corn and then heard "That's normal," from the lunch ladies.
Yeah, I really can't stomach things like that.

I really want my mom to do acupuncture so my sore throat will go away.

I don't know how I'm going to do anything today in class. If I'm supposed to answer anything I will have to type it because I can't talk one bit. I can't even hear myself if I try.

I'm just going to continue listening to SHINee's Evil, my new jam. Don't ask me, the lyrics are kind of just amazing to me.

A sticky night with black fog, a dark night where you can’t see anything
I hold onto the thing that touches my hand
But it tightens its weight on me, that crazy existence

(I’m out of my mind)

I breathe it in from right underneath my chin (breathe it in)
My heart srunches up at the tip of my hand (my heart)

It comes to me like a poisonous snake and silently bites me
It comes to me like a poisonous snake and silently bites me

It bites me, swallows me, melts me, spits me out and tortures me again

Evil, Evil, like a criminal in my mind
Evil, Evil, as if the terminator came
Evil, will I be able to endure this night?
Evil, Evil, a dream that is too cruel is born

My cold sweat quickly brings out the goosebumps (goosebumps)
My dried lips are cracked even more (cracked)

Just open your eyes, pay attention, it’s dangerous
Just open your eyes, pay attention, it’s dangerous

Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
Oh, it’s already spread inside of me, in my blood

It bites me, swallows me, melts me, spits me out and tortures me again

Evil, Evil, like a criminal in my mind
Evil, Evil, as if the terminator came
Evil, will I be able to endure this night?
Evil, Evil, a dream that is too cruel is born

A sticky night with black fog, a dark night where you can’t see anything
I hold onto the thing that touches my hand
But it tightens its weight on me, that crazy existence

If there are no issues, then go away so I can’t see you
I won’t catch you
What you gonna do What you gonna
If there are no issues, then go away so I can’t see you
I won’t catch you even if I die
(If there are no issues, piss off
I won’t fall asleep even if I die)

Take me out of here, take me out, take me out, take me out

Evil, Evil, like a criminal in my mind
Evil, Evil, as if the terminator came
Evil, will I be able to endure this night?
Evil, Evil, a dream that is too cruel is born

A dream that is too cruel is born E-E-E-E-E-E-Evil

Evil, Evil, like a criminal in my mind
Evil, Evil, as if the terminator came
Evil, will I be able to endure this night?
Evil, Evil, a dream that is too cruel is born

This nightmare tightens around me on this dark night
I can’t fall asleep

I like the fact I can match the beat of the music and the rhythm of the Korean lyrics to the English lyrics.

I even started making up a dance to this song. I've become obsessed.... Oh well!

Anybody have a copy of The Fault in Our Stars they'd be willing to let me borrow? Just curious 'cause I want to read it but I'm waiting for a call to see if I got a job.

I'll probably call them when my voice comes back because I already did the drug test Monday. I really want money. I decided I was going to put some money away for savings and then buy two or three SHINee shirts as a reward.

Our WHAP final exam is really cool! We have to write an analysis on a movie that can be foreign, but it can't be a big movie. And it has to be on a historical event and can't be rated R. Darn. XD

That and we have to pick a time period we want to go back to and...I think we have to recreate the scene but have to write a 10-15 page essay for one or maybe even both of the projects, but I could really care less, I've already got that planned out in my mind...lulz, EVIL lyrics!!!!

 For English, our final exam consists of making a poster or something for a single word, with many different poems from many different poets on it. Not sure what the word is going to be yet because I have a lot of really cool ideas.

My mom got a book on Korean culture and it has the Korean alphabet and everything in there and I'm freaking out because apparently it's one of the easiest languages to learn in the world, only has twenty four letters, and most of the kids in Korea are completely fluent in it by the time they go to preschool. 

Doesn't sound to bad. But that will be so nice not to have to look up the lyrics to SHINee songs and just know what they are! XD I'm so pathetic...or so obsessed....hmmmmm

Seriously, I worry about when I get my voice back. I'm NOT going to be able to not sing THAT SONG!!!!!!

^^ SHINee why are you destroying my life with your fantabulous music???!

HEY, I SNEEZED AND IT DIDN'T KILL MY THROAT!!!!!

That seems like a weird thing to be excited about, but when you can't even swallow your own saliva without pain, this is a big deal.

I don't know why, but our school library is showing off a book about Sarah Palin. Like, what the ACTUAL FUDGE???

I wonder if I can get my math teacher to listen to SHINee...'cause in the morning I get there early and he always asks me how I'm doing. I should just give him the earbud and my iphone and just walk away. XD It will be on lock, I'm not stupid. I've done this before. XD

Why SHINee, do you have sexy voices too???

Okay, I'm going to go before I just start talking to SHINee more than you guys. 

Love you! 

Bye!

Listen to Evil by SHINee....

Or SHINee in general...........

Wtf did I just read???

Well I finished City of Bones.

WAT JUST HAPPENED???? DID ITUNES RIP ME OFF ON THIS BOOK???

Like what the hell I'm so confused.

HOW IS KISSING YOUR FREAKING BROTHER ROMANTIC????

HOOOOOW????

JUST EXPLAIN THIS TO ME.

I DON'T EVEN...
NO.

JUST...WHERE'S THE NEXT BOOK?

LIKE WAT THE HELL YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME!!!!!!!!

THEY'RE NOT SIBLINGS.

SOMETHING'S GOING ON.

IT'S A DREAM.

A SCARY ONE.

I CAN'T COMPREHEND ANYTHING...



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By the way, a friend found my SHINee story on Wattpad the other day and now she's having me add her into the story.

SO SHE'S ENCOURAGING MY SHINee FANFIC AND OBSESSION.

THIS IS WHY I LOVE HER.

AND I GET TO KEEP MY FAVORITE TO MYSELF BECAUSE SHE'S GOT RAVI.

I'M SERIOUSLY WORRIED ABOUT MY DESPERATE LOVE OVER THEM, PARTICULARLY -------

YEAH I'M NOT SAYING WHICH ONE.

JUST THAT HE'S GOT A BEAUTIFUL, ATTRACTIVE VOICE IN WHICH I LIKE TO RAP TOO.

THAT NARROWS IT DOWN TO TWO. YOU'RE WELCOME.

AND HE DOESN'T DYE HIS HAIR PINK.

I LOVE SHINee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






























I seriously need a life.

All the things I've seen...

I've never seen something as beautiful as this. I sure hope to one day. I've never seen a coin bring together people of all different nationalities to enjoy a classic piece.

http://www.wimp.com/bestcoin/

^One of the best things I've ever seen in my life. It really makes me question how much joy you can bring to so many people through something so simple. With music.

I've been studying for my first AP test which comes up in SIX days. But I'm too stressed out at the moment and came to enjoy my music and update my (inactive) blog. I don't really mind the time, we all need things to do to destress and right now blogging seems like a preferable option.

I'm aiming for a five on this AP exam. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, a FIVE...the HIGHEST score you can get on this thing. Even if it means memorizing rubrics and ten thousand years of history.

So I got excepted to go on a biking/canoeing/camping trip the week after school gets out and I absolutely can not wait for it to come!!! I've already gone on two practice rides this week and will take two next week even though one is two days before the exam and one the afternoon AFTER the exam. Hey, I'm going to need some way to defuse the stress.

Off of AP World History and to after---> I plan to accomplish...like, TEN things I couldn't do because my AP course load was weighing down on me. Like learn to dance to a bunch of SHINee songs, write my book (maybe even finish), take the summer to take driver's ed (yes I'm a late bloomer ladies and gentlemen), work my butt to get to varsity in tennis, and work a part time job.

That's right, I applied for an actual job! I just have to get drug tested but that's pointless, but if it means getting the job I am willing to let an unknown person stick a needle in my arm and draw blood. I really need to ask my mom to get some candy for me because I get dizzy easily after having my blood taken out of me and sugar helps calm me down at times like those. The second time I had to get a physical for sports the lady was so nice and my mom talked me through it just asking about my favorite band at the time and it was quickly over with (but I'd be a liar if I said I didn't cry because I'm easily freaked out by needles). Last time I got a physical and they did it the only reason I cried was because they missed my vein and it reaaaaaaally hurt. So I pray that doesn't happen this time because I don't want a bruise for a month again.

I'm going to stop talking about needles before I feel sick to my stomach.

HAMLET.

Ladies and gentlemen this has become my new Shakespearean muse. All the horrible jokes in that play. AND THEN THERE'S THE MOVIE WITH MEL GIBSON.

JUST LET ME ROLL ON THE FLOOR LAUGHING MY BUTT OFF FOR A GOOD TWO HOURS. WHILE MY ENGLISH TEACHER DOES HER MODERN GHETTO COMMENTARY IN THE BACKGROUND.

Let's recount some things we noticed by watching the movie:
1. Mel Gibson likes to hold his sword by the blade and not the handle. HOW HAS HE NOT GOTTEN CUT YET???
2. Mel Gibson/Hamlet has anger issues. Ex. 1: Banging his sword against stones so sparks fly (this led to us wondering how everyone in the court below did not hear him but then stating that Claudius heard him because he looked up and laughed. Claudius knooooooows.) Ex. 2: Queen Gertrude slaps Hamlet and all he does is start to roar or something. Ri-dic-u-lous.
Here's Hamlet's roar moment: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a38HZFbhB-M
3. Hamlet's not good with romance. Ex: He kisses Ophelia, looks at her and then simply says, "Farewell."
4. Mel Gibson has way to many funny/creepy faces. Ex: http://ed101.bu.edu/StudentDoc/Archives/ED101sp06/sschafer/gibson%20hamlet.jpg
5. There's....awkward moments between Hamlet and his mother....awkward putting it lightly....
6. I'm done with Hamlet. XD It's just a joke now. XD

SHINee is my other muse and I've become and official stalker and fangirl. I stalk Key's instagram and all I'm writing right now is fanfics.
I got a fortune cookie the other day that said, "The object of your desire comes closer." My response to this was, "HOLY SHIT! SHINee IS COMING TO WISCONSIN????"
^^ Yeah, that's a totally normal thing to say during Chinese class.

My puppy is staring at me with an angry look. I'm going to go play with her now so I don't burst into flames at a random moment.

Peace out guys!!!! <3