I JUST REALIZED...

I just made body peace.

You know, like, I've kind of accepted my insecurities about my body. Which, is BIG. For a girl.

I'm going to tell the story now, it's a bit weird, but you know, not scary.

I was literally just standing in my bathroom. I've had a rough day. Didn't get much sleep last night, I've been hungry for no reason all day and have not been able to satisfy this eating machine in my stomach. I babysat twins who hit their terrible three's for seven hours today and one wouldn't go down for her nap because of the thunderstorm so after I had run out in the middle of the storm to get the dogs, I basically held her in my arms trying to comfort her until her sister woke up and I realized, I was not getting a usual hour to eat and gain my energy back. Then I've come home and been doing homework and filling out my application for National Honors Society.

But I'm diverting from the topic. Anyway, after this stressful day, my hair is falling out of its braid, there's a bunch of curled friz (like the strands curl, yet they're frizzy), I need a shower by tomorrow morning, my acne has gotten out of hand, and I still have awkward tan lines from tennis. Overall, I look like I'm a bum.

So I was standing in front of the mirror for awhile, just looking over myself and kind of just said to myself, "You know what, you don't actually look that bad."
I probably don't look THAT bad, but it's bad.
Then I proceeded to do the thing where I turn so my side is facing the mirror.
I then straightened my shoulders and back and looked at my belly (without sucking it in because I was like, "you've gotta admit your real weight") and I literally thought, "Damn! You lost your tummy! You actually look thin!"

I'm not thin. XD I have at least an inch of fat and skin over my abs (and I do often use the quote, "I love my abs so much I keep a layer of fat over them to protect them."). I'm pretty sure tennis workouts have caused some of my pouchiness to go down and the fact I've been eating less wheat/glutton.

And the acne...well, I was looking past that, like it didn't matter.

And I'm pretty dang sure, I've just achieved body peace with myself. HOLY SHIZ.

Uh...yeah, that's kind of all I had to share.

IT'S A BIG MOMENT FOR ME OKAY DON'T JUDGE ME!!!! I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED.

Okay, love you guys! Bye!

XOXOX